Ever have that time in your life where it feels like you are playing a game of cards and as you look at the hand you were just dealt all you see is a hand of face-less cards?

You feel like a pretty big loser at this point because really, what game can you play let alone win with a set of faceless cards?!

That is exactly how I started to feel July of 2018 and man did I feel like shit! that feeling of living the life of a sure to lose card hand is not a fun one, especially when the hurt you feel is as precise as this vague metaphor.

My immune system was asleep at the wheel letting this hurt fully infiltrate my inner sole and quickly taking grasp of my life. This in essence was that awkward spot between denial and rock bottom. I knew I had a problem... But I didn't know what to call it.